Looking back to the year 2010, its a year full of changes.
Everything changed so so so much in this one year that I actually questioned myself of what not changed in me.
From the inner to the outer.
From the insight to the outsight.
I will always want to be the clown, the one who show joy and fun to people.
I will always want to cheer people up, to kill the silence with whatever crap that I could think of.
The side that will always be shown to people: laughter, joy, craziness, randomness.
People who know me good enough will actually know that I am quite inward.
I will hide my problems and choose to cry alone in the room.
I will just sit quietly and stare into the blank space thinking of the past.
Memories are puzzle pieces that formed my life.
The side that was hidden from most of the people: heartbreaks, tears, doubts.
But forgive me for sometimes the sorrow is just so heavy I accidentally popped my sad face out. I'm working on it.
Flipped across my 2010 resolutions few days back written in the note book that I use to jot down notes from all Sunday services. And to my surprise I actually fulfilled most of them. For your information I actually got a LOT of things written down there. Yes. I was 21 in 2010. And I have 21 resolutions.
Maybe I can share a few of them. But not all. Coz. I. Am. Really. Shy. =P
Self: -To hit a certain maturity level
-Improve in temper. (YES I HAVE QUITE SOME PRINCESS TEMPER)
If through this whole year you didn't notice then I think I improved a lot. =P
Family: -To have better relationship with parents.
FYI I grew up not living with them. So they are actually some close stranger to me
Friends: Shy case. Bye~
God: -Growth.
-His plan in me.
Here is actually only 5 of my resolutions. 16 more haha I am shy. You can either sneak into my room in the night while I am sleeping to peek or you can cover your face pretending that you are a snatch thief and snatch my note book away.
In that past 1 year I am really amazed by God's work on me. He has actually widened my sight so so much now I am seeing so much things that I couldn't see before. I have even heard and see of His plans for me. So clear so beautiful so vivid of my future.
I have found joy in the choice that I've made in His accordance. That no matter how hard the journey will be, He'll provide me strength to carry on.And I am so amazed by the strength that He had provided for my every task until it is finished. I am very sure that I am in a path of His plans for me.
And of all those above, of course of cause of faith and prayer that it happened. =)
Till now then, time to sleep. Its a brand new day again tomorrow.
I'll continue the post few days later.
Nitez peeps.
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