Stand By Me

2011-05-18T23:36:00.000+08:00

No matter what will be the consequences,

No matter what is going to be up next...

I'll just try my best and be myself,

Just hope that it will bear fruit someday.

Get it right.

2011-04-14T00:15:00.001+08:00

It has been a while.
It awakes the sad side of me every time having you across my mind.
How can I shake you off?
How can I get you off my life and never hear from you again?

WELL,
Welcome to my silly life.

A new chapter has begin now.

I have one month's time.

2011-03-23T15:40:00.000+08:00

2011-03-18T12:25:00.000+08:00

Sorry, for the worldly things that I've anticipated.
Sorry, for the wrong doings that I've done.
Sorry, for the wrong feelings that I've put in.
Sorry, for the struggles that I've put you through.

Today,
I found myself broken hearted.
I found myself in pain.
I found myself struggling.
I found myself on the ground.
I found myself crying.

I'm sorry.
I should have wait.
I really should have.
Forgive me,
And please bear with this sad me.

2011-03-06T09:06:00.000+08:00

2011-02-17T10:50:00.000+08:00

Life is so, so, so, so, bitter.

Endure it. This is life.

Life's a rough ride, so hold tight and be prepared.

Prepare for all injustice that you'll face.

2011-01-05T00:48:00.001+08:00

Looking back to the year 2010, its a year full of changes.
Everything changed so so so much in this one year that I actually questioned myself of what not changed in me.
From the inner to the outer.
From the insight to the outsight.

I will always want to be the clown, the one who show joy and fun to people.
I will always want to cheer people up, to kill the silence with whatever crap that I could think of.
The side that will always be shown to people: laughter, joy, craziness, randomness.

People who know me good enough will actually know that I am quite inward.
I will hide my problems and choose to cry alone in the room.
I will just sit quietly and stare into the blank space thinking of the past.
Memories are puzzle pieces that formed my life.
The side that was hidden from most of the people: heartbreaks, tears, doubts.
But forgive me for sometimes the sorrow is just so heavy I accidentally popped my sad face out. I'm working on it.

Flipped across my 2010 resolutions few days back written in the note book that I use to jot down notes from all Sunday services. And to my surprise I actually fulfilled most of them. For your information I actually got a LOT of things written down there. Yes. I was 21 in 2010. And I have 21 resolutions.

Maybe I can share a few of them. But not all. Coz. I. Am. Really. Shy. =P

Self: -To hit a certain maturity level
-Improve in temper. (YES I HAVE QUITE SOME PRINCESS TEMPER)
If through this whole year you didn't notice then I think I improved a lot. =P

Family: -To have better relationship with parents.
FYI I grew up not living with them. So they are actually some close stranger to me

Friends: Shy case. Bye~

God: -Growth.
-His plan in me.

Here is actually only 5 of my resolutions. 16 more haha I am shy. You can either sneak into my room in the night while I am sleeping to peek or you can cover your face pretending that you are a snatch thief and snatch my note book away.

In that past 1 year I am really amazed by God's work on me. He has actually widened my sight so so much now I am seeing so much things that I couldn't see before. I have even heard and see of His plans for me. So clear so beautiful so vivid of my future.

I have found joy in the choice that I've made in His accordance. That no matter how hard the journey will be, He'll provide me strength to carry on.And I am so amazed by the strength that He had provided for my every task until it is finished. I am very sure that I am in a path of His plans for me.

And of all those above, of course of cause of faith and prayer that it happened. =)

Till now then, time to sleep. Its a brand new day again tomorrow.
I'll continue the post few days later.
Nitez peeps.

ManBai - Kau Ilhamku

2010-12-14T00:34:00.000+08:00

Kau Ilhamku
Beribu bintang dilangit
Kini menghilang
Meraba aku dalam kelam
Rembulan mengambang
Kini makin suram
Pudar ilhamku tanpa arah

Sedetik wajahmu muncul
Dalam diam
Ada kerdipan ada sinar
Itukah bintang ataupun rembulan
Terima kasih kuucapkan

Izinkan kumencuri bayangan wajahmu
Izinkan ku mencuri khayalan denganmu

Maafkanlah oh...
Andai lagu ini
Mengganggu ruangan hidupmu
Kau senyumlah oh...
Sekadar memori
Kita di arena ini

Kau ilhamku
Kau ilhamku...

A song so good I can't get it off my mind.
=)

2010-12-09T01:55:00.002+08:00

All I wanna say is, I'm counting on God.
Keep the faith.

2010-11-15T21:04:00.000+08:00

I Don’t Want To Talk About It

I can tell by your eyes that you've probbly been cryin forever,
And the stars in the sky don't mean nothin to you, they're a mirror.
I don't want to talk about it, how you broke my heart.
If I stay here just a little bit longer,
If I stay here, wont you listen to my heart, whoa, heart?

If I stand all alone, will the shadow hide the color of my heart;
Blue for the tears, black for the nights fears.
The star in the sky don't mean nothin to you, they're a mirror.
I don't want to talk about it, how you broke my heart.
If I stay here just a little bit longer,
If I stay here, wont you listen to my heart, whoa, heart?
I don't want to talk about it, how you broke this ol heart.

If I stay here just a little bit longer,
If I stay here, wont you listen to my heart, whoa, heart?
My heart, whoa, heart.

p/s:I am quite disappointed.
And I don't wanna talk about it.
Let the song speak.

2010-11-11T17:50:00.000+08:00

The SHIT post.

Shit

Shit. Also known as shit, is defined as shit, is the almighty guru of the universe.
Usually the 3 most common colour of shit is brown black or green.
Brown is the normal healthy shit.
Black is when you are having constipation.
Green is when you are having a sick stomach.
You can have red sometimes. If you are bleeding internally.
Or brown with yellow beads, when you ate corn and having indigestions.

Shit. is the best comparison on earth.
"Hot like shit"
"Cold like shit"
"You're eating like shit"
"You're sleeping like shit"
"You looked like shit"
"She's as good as shit!"

Shit. is an expression you use everyday.
You dropped something : " Ah, shit!"
You forgot something: "Oh shit!"
You are impressed: "Serious shit?!"
When its funny: "You are the funniest shit man..!"
You're pissed: " You go eat shit."

Shit. as Almighty.
sometimes,

When they are nasty

Other times,

Shit is a hostel or hotel or whatever else

Or,

shit is awesome.

CRAP SHIT I need a break.
Wait.
Is shit cold?
Is shit hot?
Is shit good?
Any of you tried it before?

Is shit even funny?
OH THE HOLY SHIT I AM SO CONFUSED BY SHIT NOW!!
But is is so awesome and cool I use shit everyday.
Err, I mean, I speak shit everyday,
Err, talk shit I mean.
GAH. Anything........ anything.....
They are wrong in any way.
But wrong in an right way.

Who cares, bye!

OH SHIT!
Wait a second.
I have one more picture to show.

The SHIT pyramid

It is so true. Shit make sense!

2010-11-07T23:08:00.000+08:00

My home-coming ticket

Its SEM BREAK!!!
I am done with another semester =)

The poison in me, ze laziness is being activated again.
Therefore, all the good values in me is defeated by that deadly poison.
Its like a 4 season country.
But in my case it is just with 3 seasons.
The Lazy Season,The Hardworking Season,The Whatever Season.
Sem break is the Lazy Season.
All that I do is just lie down on the bed and read whatever that I have or watch whatever series that I have.
Hardworking Season is when tests or finals are near.
Forcing myself to stay up late by going to Mcd to have some nerding.
Whatever Season is when semester just started and there are not much stuff to follow up.
This is the best time. I am occupied with work and play at the same time. =)

And of course, sem break means more than Lazy Season.
When there's sem break, there's FUN too!

The Highland

The low land

The sea level

I love Sem break.
More updates of my trips next post, hopefully.
*If I manage to control my laze poison*
For now it is attacking again.
A'dieu my frens.

2010-10-28T00:14:00.004+08:00

I am not going to speak or write any human language tomorrow.
No Mandarin No English No Cantonese No Malay No Hakka.
I am doing C language the whole day until finally my test is over.
Wish me good luck.

2010-10-25T14:51:00.001+08:00

FINALLY!!

Of green pastures, A break.

Went to a park to catch some nice breeze there after a raining morning.

The 3 major papers of my finals are finally over..
And now the last test the finale 4-credit-hour C programming paper is 3 days away.
Oh FYI I already declared independence for myself the moment I came out from the exam hall yesterday.
=)
Then went straight away for a movie.

Ze most awesome movie that I've watched these past few months.

It is so awesome I wanna bang my head to the arm rest in the cinema.
But too bad its cushion coated so I saved it for the next head bang-ing movie.

R.E.D
- A retired guy hugging a pink huge soft toy pig running around the city

- All the awesome stunts.

- The retarded conversations.

- The cool-to-the-max moves.

Go watch it yourself. =P
It is so so so Epic.

p/s: Okey I think its almost time to study again.
Hopefully you won't see me updating again until Thursday,
If I update means I am not studying again.
C-Programming GAH!

2010-10-15T01:26:00.001+08:00

Name: Tung Kar Men
Gender: Female
Age: 21
D.O.B: 28.06.1989
Hometown: Ipoh
Current course: Bachelor in Electrical and Electronics Engineering (Hons.)

4 years, Engineer to be.
My family will be proud of me.
People will come to my house with baskets of fruits to congratulate my parents.
The graduation photo will be on the wall of fame of the house.
I'll join the rest of Tung's in the Bachelor Degree world.
And proudly declare that I am officially an Engineer.
Then soon Masters Degree.
I'll call myself Lecturer then.
And hopefully PhD too.
People will call me Dr. Tung.
I am waiting for that day.

Sorry for all the day dreams.
Come back to reality,
finals are near, so you can't blame me for day dreaming.
All these dreams are keeping me sane to go deep in studies and academic fights.
I'm not fighting with anyone, I'm fighting with my results last semester!
Yes I shall win.
I will.
I AM!!!

2010-10-14T01:19:00.003+08:00

Moon River, wider than a mile,
I'm crossing you in style some day.
Oh, dream maker, you heart breaker,
wherever you're going I'm going your way.

Two drifters off to see the world.
There's such a lot of world to see.
We're after the same rainbow's end--
waiting 'round the bend,
my huckleberry friend,
Moon River and me.
-Moon River

I didn't know it is a song this sad.
Not until I saw a friend's status in Facebook.
The song playing in youtube sang by Andy Williams made me emo a bit in a night like this.
My "a night like this" is defined as: A humid and hot night after a bath.
A night like this is supposed to make ppl feel frustrated then throw away all the notes and go straight to bed,
but then this song suddenly strucked me and BOO~~!! emo.

The verse
Moon River, wider than a mile,
I'm crossing you in style some day.
Oh, dream maker, you heart breaker,
wherever you're going I'm going your way.
best describes a person going through an early recovery stage of break up.
and it twinged me a bit.

Because what believe me,
I have a couple of friends going through break ups here.
The pain that they are going through,
trying very hard to live their own lifes,
and can't help much but to just being towed unwillingly away by what their ex is doing.
Trying very very very hard to prove to him/her that life without him/her will be just fine,
but internally struggling to shake themselves loose from that conscious-but-pretending-to-be-not chain of pain around them.

And deep inside, they tell themselves "Someday, I'll get this over and I'll cross over you in style!"

All the best,
and remember,
there's a friend called Carmen Tung here standing by her shoulder for all of you.
=)

2010-10-07T14:54:00.003+08:00

Today, life may be frustrating n hard.

Things may not run as smooth as it should be.
We might not see the results of what we are hoping for.

But whenever you are not satisfied with life, whenever you are angry, whenever you feel that you are treated unfair, start counting your blessings.
Think of how there are good times in your life.
It is because you've gone thru good times in your life thats why you are able to feel the bad times.
Think of how good God has been blessing you.
Tell yourself 'Because of all these bad times, I know which are good times.'
And deep inside you you know that you are not alone, that there is someone great watching over you.

This is what i do whenever bad time strikes.
And reminding myself of what i wrote above during bad times, it works every single time.
EVERY SINGLE TIME.

I've found joy today in everything that i do.
Joy can be found in whatever task.
Ask and you'll be given, knock and the door will be opened.

Have a good day everyone.

p/s: i uploaded this post via mobile internet.
The awesome old junk phone.

2010-10-02T11:57:00.002+08:00

I screwed my test 2 everyone.
I screwed it!

I AM SO FREAKING SAD!

I was about to burst into tears after leaving the exam hall yesterday.
And all the whole mood of revising for the next test, which is in 2 hours time after the first one, GONE!
And so, 2 tests gone!!
2 heavy tests in 1 day is crazy!
And I can see my CGPA dropping even before I get back my results.
Seriously if I can get B- for Advanced Calculus this semester my jump of joy will hit the ceiling of my room!
I used to get straight A for my first 3 semester's calculus!!
The 4th sem I got a sucky lecturer, then BOOM!!!!
gone case.
=(
I. Must. Start. Haunting. My. Text. Books. From. Now. On!

I was thinking of making my hair straight again.
Still considering though, who knows maybe I can get better result after straightening my hair.

my straight hair

Then it turned to curls

Currently it is like that

I don't have much of my straight hair pictures left.
I permed my hair curly coz I needed a move-on at that time where things are superbly messy.
And now I wonder should I make it back straight.

p/s:

I am going to remove the chat box on the right of the blog.

Because its not a chat box anymore ITS A SPAM BOX!

2010-09-25T23:55:00.001+08:00

Hello hello. Imma trying out my new Maxis 3g plan. Wahahaha. If i really can update my blog via phone, this will be the most awesome thing that can happen to my phone!

2010-09-25T03:32:00.000+08:00

Look at that loose long wavy hair of mine back then!!!
I miss it!

And I am now this!!!!
This is what I call hairless!

2010-09-25T00:28:00.005+08:00

I am back to uni, the quite a very sad place.
Days have been busy from the very first step I stepped on the ground here after the break.
Its not a bad thing though, for at least I can ignore my homesickness first.

Today,after one week, I finally have some time to sit down here to switch on the laptop to get some updates from Facebook.
I feel so so so outdated this whole week.
All in my world for the past week were only assignments, tests, and quizzes.

P/S:
The greatest thing I did this week, to celebrate a friend's bday.

Bday boy Alex: "Life is better when you were me"

Happy 26th Birthday.
Well, I still love my 7 year old camera.
It is still in a condition so good that I can still take awesome pictures.
5 mega pixel is just nice to do me great.
=)

2010-09-19T01:17:00.002+08:00

I Is The Very Sad!

I've tried a million methods to not go back / to maximize my precious time in Ipoh.
I skipped a camp, and I gained 3 more days in Ipoh.
I abandoned my train ticket, then bought a new ticket Sunday 6.30pm, I gained 24 and a half more hours in Ipoh.
I sleep very very late everyday in Ipoh, and I gained a few more awaken hours in Ipoh.

But however finally the very sad is here again.
There is no way to hide anymore.
Hell is welcoming me.
The hell of stress,
The hell of assignments,
And,
The hell of work and test.
Yes, and I have no choice but to step in it.
=(

Someone's status in FB yesterday:
I miss home
Then someone else commented:
Thats why I don't go home often, it will reset my homesick meter!
EPIC!
but it is very the true.

Bye bye Ipoh, I shall see you in 3 more weeks.
=)
I'm coming back on the 7th October, as 6th form night is on 9th.
Bravo.
My 4th sixth form night.
And my first sixth form night without FEI PHANG as principal.

I. MUST. ATTEND

P/s:

How good if I click on this button and it can straight away bring me home!
I mean home, real home, not homepage.
Someone should seriously create a time machine.
So that I can go home whenever I want.

2010-09-17T12:05:00.001+08:00

The Green Post

Was wandering around the house last night walking here and there.
Then a green patch of thing captured my eyes and it freaked me out.
I was like "WHOA!! I like green THAT much?"
Because suddenly everything on the desk is in green.

There is a reason why I liked green.
I started liking green since last year's Merdeka week. XD
Went for a camp in the weekend back then in Port Dickson.
And my team is GREEN TEAM!!!
Ever since then I started liking green without any valid reasons.
But the picture above is a true coincidence.
For all girls out there I am sure you choose facial product based on your skin type, not the colour, rite? =P

All these are specially formulated for lazy people like me.
And this is the best combination ever that I've tried for me.

Sometimes I will be just so lazy to even take bath. =P
But no matter what I need to clean my face before falling into coma again or you'll see a Tung Kar Men filled with rashes on her face.
fyi: Sleep is my biggest hobby all time
If you can see the small wordings down there 'ready for be as soon as possible'
I'll just wipe my face with cotton when I come back late at night and then I'll be ready to doze off.
p/s: This method is only for really lazy and tiring days.

This is applied after cleaning my face in proper way.
It is my toner with anti blemish clarifying lotion.
Lazy people don't like to apply a lot of layers,
The best is if it is all in 1.
So this is a 2 in 1 for me.
Toner + pimple healing/preventing essence.
It has a very strong alcoholic smell.
It took me some time to get use to it.
But seriously it works for me. =)
Since my face is kinda O-kay now d, and as you can see it is going to finish in no time, this is the last bottle that I'm going to use, and I am going to change to Artistry, the toner in series with my facial cleanser.

This is one of the best thing that healed my face!
But good thing doesn't smell good.
It is with a freaking strong tea tree smell and it lingers for a very long while!
I dislike moisturisers because they are very oily on my face and I am very lazy to apply them too. =P
I only apply this once a day, which is before I sleep.
It is the blemish face night lotion + moisturiser for me.

This is the only good that that smells good.
It smells like peach I think I will drink it in if someone let me smell it while I am blindfolded.

P/s:

People, introducing the legendary Green Team!
And we won the best group during the camp.
And we were celebrating with the sparkling juice.

2010-09-16T02:55:00.002+08:00

We The Kings ft. Demi Lovato - We'll Be A Dream

Do you remember the nights
We'd stay up just laughing
Smiling for hours
At anything
Remember the nights
We drove around crazy in love

When the lights go out
We'll be safe and sound
We'll take control of the world
Like it's all we have to hold on to
And we'll be a dream

A simple song.
A nice one.
A nostalgic piece.
So much memories through the lyrics.

The nights where we'd stayed up just laughing, smiling for hours at anything.
Remember the nights we drive around crazy in love.
The good old days where we can really gather together,
When we were really mad in love with each other.
That the world is so pure and nice.
I think I'll even smile in my dreams.

The promises that we made, do you still remember?

However those were the old days.
I have my life now and you have yours.
We are all busy.
The days where we stayed up chatting and laughing, grumbling bout the past and predicting the future, chatting bout how silly were we, describing our dream life to each other, the good old days, they are gone forevermore.
It is nothing but only a piece of memory now.
And memory fades.
And then we grow up.
And then we establish our own home.
And then we probably wont be meeting each other anymore.

2010,4th year after secondary school graduation.
When was the last time we gathered everyone altogether?
Chinese new year.

How often do we contact each other now?
Facebook, liking each's status once a month perhaps.

2006

2009

Please, make the bond last,
although the grown up world isn't that easy.

2010-09-15T02:15:00.002+08:00

The Thin Fine Line

Take a step over it and your life might not be the same anymore.
It might turn out to be a better life than your previous,
or it might be the worst decision ever in your life.

The thin yellow line on the floor might look insignificant, but in times insignificant things are the ones providing you massive changes.

And I want to cross this line now.
I want to see difference in my views.
I want to breath the air over the other side of the line.

Life. Is. Beautiful
=)

2010-09-14T00:25:00.003+08:00

The Should-Be-Doings and the shouldn't-be-doings for this Raya break.

Should-Be-Doing
1.Revising my calculus as test 2 is coming this 1st of October.
2.Revising my differential equations as test 2 is on the same day back to back with calculus.
3.Doing both the C programming assignments duedate after the Raya holiday.
4.Doing the Circuits assignment duedate early October.

All these above, I am not doing them, at all.

Shouldn't-Be-Doing
1.Going out everyday for gatherings and meeting friends. (Yes I should meet friends, but not everyday T.T )
2.Buying not-too-necessary stuff and wasting money.
3.Shouldn't online at this moment wasting time not revising or doing assignments.

All these above, yes I am doing them, every single day.

P/S:
To save my almost-bye-bye spoilt-to-the-max hair,I bought this bottle of thing in Jusco that day under some advise of my friend.

And yes and it helps!!!!
Its only day 3 and I am feeling my hair getting better.
=D

2010-09-10T00:28:00.002+08:00

ALOHA PEOPLE!!!!
I am back in my super awesome Ipoh!!!
After 2 half months, yes I am back!
To the HOME. To the PARADISE! To the HEAVEN ON EARTH!!

And Gatherings!
went steamboat with Phoon Lem Chai Teng Pooi Khoon Yeong Ann Kae Chiam Ah Fong and Jin Chee!!!

We tried to take some nice panoramic pictures but this is the result. =(
STILL, its a super satisfying juicy funny hilarious meal with all the form 6 friends.

Yup I went to visit my cute handsome cousin straight away after reaching Ipoh.
He is learning how to stand now.
And he just learnt how to kiss people!
*hvn managed to make him kiss me though*
He's just so irresistable I can't stop myself from kissing him!!
=D

And after that I went home and I saw my baby girl at home!!!
Oh fyi she is only one day older than my cousin boy.
Maybe they'll get to know each other one day and ehem, be friends or something else.
XD
But for now she's so chubby and fair ARGHHHHHHHH I want to bite her!!!
Poor her hehehehehehehehe.....

P/S:
And, Hehehehe....
For those of you who saw my short hair picture in FB,
sorry I lied to all of you out there.
I'm not having short hair actually.
I'm still having the long not-so-curly-anymore hair that I used to have.
Its just that part of my hair layer is shoulder length.
And I made use of my boring days in Uniten to make it look like I'm really having short hair and so I took a picture of it and uploaded it to FB.
Well, I might really try this hairstyle someday,
coz of all the compliments that I received in the comment box.
=P
But definately not so soon.
I still love my long spoilt hair for now.

2010-09-07T01:56:00.002+08:00

Took this from a random blog that I bumped into.
This is sometimes so true and real it made me feel emo a bit.

"有沒有過，在一個場合覺得自己不屬於那裡？
明明每一張面孔都十分熟悉，明明身邊充滿著笑聲。
應該要很開心的，卻覺得特別孤單。

很想哭很想哭，以前的我很愛哭的，總認為這是一種很好的發洩，哭過了，就好了。
這世界上沒有什麼事情是過不去的。
可是這一次，心在哭泣，臉在笑，眼淚流不出來。
我的心離家出走，不想回來了。"

突然好想你 詞曲:阿信(五月天)

最怕空氣突然安靜　最怕朋友突然的關心
最怕回憶　突然翻滾絞痛著不平息
最怕突然　聽到你的消息

想念如果會有聲音　不願那是悲傷的哭泣
事到如今　終於讓自己屬於　我自己
只剩眼淚　還騙不過自己

突然好想你　你會在哪裡　過得快樂或委屈
突然好想你　突然鋒利的回憶　突然模糊的眼睛

我們像一首最美麗的歌曲　變成兩部悲傷的電影
為什麼你　帶我走過最難忘的旅行
然後留下　最痛的紀念品

我們　那麼甜那麼美那麼相信　那麼瘋那麼熱烈的曾經
為何我們還是要奔向各算的幸福和遺憾中老去

突然好想你　你會在哪裡　過得快樂或委屈
突然好想你　突然鋒利的回憶　突然模糊的眼睛

最怕空氣突然安靜　最怕朋友突然的關心
最怕回憶　突然翻滾絞痛著　不平息
最怕突然　聽到你的消息

最怕此生　已經決心自己過　沒有你　卻又突然　聽到你的消息

I always loved mayday.
Their songs and lyrics are so real so true and meaningful.
This is what music should be.
To be impacting and to be able to touch people's heart.
“When there's something wrong with your soul, seek music."

I don't consider every song music.
Sorry if there are fans out there but songs like "love the way you lie", "empire state of mind" and "california girls" are nothing else but just a song to me.
They may be entertaining and fun and addictive but at the end they give me no message.
They meant nothing to me at all.
Sad but I am picky. =P
Nice groove with sucky lyrics is sad.
Nice lyrics with sucky melody is sad.
Only with the 2 combinations, that is what I called music.

p/s: Ipoh is ONE MORE DAY away only. Yay~~
I can seriously smell my Ipoh bed from here. =D

2010-09-05T18:17:00.000+08:00

She's the lady boss of the family.
She's the chef of the family.
She's the treasurer of the family.
She's the big judge of the family.
She's the secretary of the family.
Okay this list is going to be long.
lets make it short.

She is the

Chairperson:
Secretary:
Treasurer:
Decorator:
Cleanliness head:
Food master:
Auditor:
and everything

of the family.

She doesn't work shift.
She works 24/7.
Anytime on call.
Zero salary.

That's my fantastic mom.
And i love her!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MUMMY!!!

♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

2010-09-05T02:03:00.002+08:00

This song came across my mind all of a sudden.

What a friend we have in Jesus
What a friend we have in Jesus,
All our sins and griefs to bear!
What a privilege to carry
Everything to God in prayer!

Oh, what peace we often forfeit,
Oh, what needless pain we bear,
All because we do not carry
Everything to God in prayer!

Have we trials and temptations?
Is there trouble anywhere?
We should never be discouraged—
Take it to the Lord in prayer.

Can we find a friend so faithful,
Who will all our sorrows share?
Jesus knows our every weakness;
Take it to the Lord in prayer.

13 years ago while I was in primary 3, grandpa thought me this song.
1 year later I learnt this song on guitar but back then I didn't know what does it really mean.
I may understand the lyrics and the phrases, but I didn't know the vast of it.
But after this long while, now, I finally know how does it personally meant for me.

Thank you Lord, for moulding me all these years.
Now I see the big picture of your plans.
And I believe that this is not the end of my understandings for this song.
As years goes by I will understand and discover more and more from this song,
the very first song that had brought me to you.
Thank you for being so faithful to me.
Thank you for being my friend.
This is a simple prayer from me, as I know that it is the heart that You seek, and not the words.
Amen.

2010-09-01T23:30:00.000+08:00

Just to update ya'll bout how am I doing here in Uniten.
=P

My circuits lab practical test

My circuits analysis mid term

This above showed you how interested am I towards this subject.
=D
I am a nerd!

And my recent labs.
Imma dealing with oscilloscope and op-amps recently

2 resistors with an op-amp plus millions of probes and crocodile clips.

The crocodile clips, they are biting my head off!

The emo view of my circuit

Life hasn't be that good recently.
I'm looking for jobs here and there, which never in my life I thought of working while studying before, to see if I can earn some extra cash to cover more of my fees.
Its only my first semester and my family can already feel the pressure.
From now on I must think a couple more of times before getting stuff for myself.

Welcome to the life, Carmen Tung.

Endure, endure.

2010-08-30T23:10:00.001+08:00

Today 30th August
1 year old

Happy birthday.

2010-08-27T00:42:00.000+08:00

This is going to be an emo angst post.
Shut up and leave if you don't feel like reading.

Ever witness one's world falling apart?
Then observe my life from now onwards.
Because I am going to be a life example of how financial problem tear one's world.

Situation 1:
Initial tuition fee(2009):RM49680
Current tuition fee(2010):RM53800

What The FISH uniten raised the tuition fees by RM4000!

Situation 2:
Initial accomodation fee per month:RM250
Current accomodation fee per month:RM280

Yes and they raised our accomodation fees as well.

Solution supposed-to-be:
And so what is the problem if I get PTPTN rite?
If anyone ever on earth ask me this question, I'll slam them on the face.

Comment:
I get only half loan for PTPTN, which is only RM38400.
Out of few hundred applicants in UNITEN I only know that there are 4 ppl who got half loan.
Others ALL get their happily every after full loan, which is either RM64000 or RM66000.

I tried to apply Yayasan Tenaga Nasional, which is TNB's loan, and damn it i failed to get that freaking loan.

Believe me this freaking shit is damn good:

0 interest
CGPA > 3.5 50% discount
RM90000 for your bachelor programme

Enough of all shits, back to serious problem now.
This afternoon i went to the finance department to check out some financial aid or any other loans or scholarships to apply, and there are none.
okay this is not what i am trying to say.
what i am trying to say is,
the officer in the finance department told me:
"Oh your PTPTN is not approved yet. Please go and confirm with PTPTN of you getting the loan. Our system have no records of you getting any loan."

Freaking SHIT this means i am now sponsored under FAMA!
FAMA = Father Mother.

This freaking fee is so expensive and the freaking accomodation fees are so high as well how am i going to survive under FAMA?
Imagine the amount that they are going to pay for my coming 4 years.

I seriously am go and look for a job now.
I. Am. Serious.
Or else i am doomed.
Or else you will see me in UTAR someday very soon.

From frustrated --> sad --> emo --> heart-broken --> angst.
WHAT'S NEXT?

2010-08-26T02:06:00.000+08:00

Pardon me.
I just don't want to stay alone now.
Can someone just call me out for anything in anywhere?
Please keep me occupied.
I need F.R.I.E.N.D.S!

2010-08-25T17:48:00.000+08:00

~~MY BEST DAYS ARE AHEAD OF ME~~

this doesn't apply to me anymore

2010-08-21T22:59:00.000+08:00

Yes this is what I do for all the lab session.
And I will be dealing with them for the next 4 years, at least.
With more complicated circuits as time goes by.
=)

Believe me it is fun.
Constructing circuits with a lot of jumpers. resistors, voltage/current sources and other components are fun!
The more components the more the fun!!!
Yay...

And the frame on my study table.
It reminds me of how wonderful my life is,
with them in it.

Miss you pple.
Hope to meet ya'll during Raya break.

with ♥,

Carmen Tung

2010-08-19T04:08:00.003+08:00

GAH!
I shouldn't have stayed up this late to study!!
Now it started to feel homesick!

Faces from Ipoh that I miss:

My Daughter

My baby

And the combination of Grandma Daughter and Baby!

Raya oh Raya. Where art thou?

2010-08-19T01:50:00.000+08:00

Your name is a nightmare for me.
10000 unwillingness in me to know your stuff.

WHY.SHOULD.I.

2010-08-18T17:56:00.000+08:00

2 TESTS DOWN! 3 TO GO!

~~Differential Equation Test 1~~
~~Circuit Lab Practical Test 1~~
Circuit Analysis Mid Term
Advanced Calculus Test 1 (Red Hot Argh Scare Scare!!)
C Programming Test Mid Term

And then it will be my raya break!!!!!!
=D

And I predict Test 2 will only arrive 3 weeks after Raya!!!
which means.........

LETS GO PO!!!!

Things to do after Test 1:

Karaoke
Movie
Sleep
Slack

Weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee......

2010-08-16T23:23:00.005+08:00

Both the cute Granny of mine =)

It had been a full 7 weeks since I last met them.
Since the day I returned for my new semester.
It felt so freaking sad to leave home.
Even after one whole year of being here in Selangor studying.
I miss home.
=(

Can raya holiday reach a bit faster? I mean..
A lot more faster?
Like tomorrow??
So that I can go home and slack all my days off and do no productive shit that nobody cares.
Oh and there's one place that i am definately going for during my raya week holiday.
PASAR MALAM!!!!!!
Which I suddenly realised the last pasar malam I went was one year ago!

Recently.
Life had been so hectic.
Lectures, tutorials, labs and tests every single week.
It is so so so tiring everyday i could just drop dead on my bed anytime.
And to wake up at 7.30 every morning is the biggest challenge for my day GAH!
I so felt like skipping class every single day without fail!
Yes, it is this bad.
Or, I am that lazy.

OH GIMME MO-TI-VA-TION PUH-LEEZE
I am still chasing for my LOVE everyday.
Dear LOVE, you are so high up there.
Can you lower yourself down a bit so that you are more reach-able?

2010-08-13T23:18:00.000+08:00

YAY YAY YAY!
Differential Equation test 1 is officially over!!!
Don't talk about it anymore.
Leave my answers to rest in peace.
And now,
Sleeping beauty is back to position!

Good night peeps.

2010-08-12T22:11:00.004+08:00

BEEPING BEEPING ALERT: Differential Equation test 1 tomorrow.....

Worm the book out,
Nerd the night out,
Stuff your mind off!

_____________________________________________________________________________________
p/s: Oh yea and pray for me as well.
YTN loan results will be out in around 2 weeks.
I DESPERATELY NEEDED THAT LOAN!!!
Or else I will be eating bread everyday for my whole 4 years.

Status: Off my butt to study now.

2010-08-06T23:09:00.005+08:00

My Best Days are Ahead of Me- Danny Gokey

Blowing out the candles
on another birthday cake
Old enough to look back and laugh at my mistakes
Young enough to look at the future and like what I see
My best days are ahead of me

Life hasn't always been a party
but mostly it's been good
There's only one or two things that I'd change if I could
I dont get lost in the past or get stuck in some sad memory yah
My best days are ahead of me

Age ain't nothing but a number
Sometimes I have to wonder
What does it really mean
But heeeey im still putting it together
I keep getting better
if I keep getting better
I can be whatever I want to be
My best days are ahead of me

I've got sunsets to witness
dreams to dance with
beaches to walk on
and lovers to kiss
there's a whole lot of world out there
that I can't wait to see
My best days are ahead of me

This is a very good song.=)
Nice lyrics and nice groove.
The first thing in the morning I turn on the radio on my birthday, this song is playing in Fly fm.

=P
Speaking bout birthday, forgive me I was too lazy to update.
But since its a windy nice Friday evening, I'll try to update a bit.
My birthday this year was a blast. Happy 21st Carmen Tung. =)
I am now officially legal for everything on earth, except for crimes of course.

♥♥♥
My first ever birthday cake and my first ever present for the year. =)
From my lovely aunt.
Thank you so so so so much...
Miss ya~


My first bday cake

Birthday was during sem break though, and form 6 frens called for a karaoke session one week before my birthday.


my 2nd bday cake

AND THEY PREPARED A BIRTHDAY CAKE FOR ME.
*tears*
Thanks peeps.

And this is the whole bunch of them.

A 6 hours of karaoke singing session is fun to the maxmax plus sore throat to the maxmaxmax. I miss them =(

♥♥♥
And there's time located for this girl as well.
The form 2 to form 5 best ever friend who supports and craze with me for my whole secondary years.
Yee Chin!!


my 3rd bday cake =)

And so sad I gotta go back to uni earlier to settle my loan thingy and the whole process it turned out that my trip back is kind of a waste trip.
But who cares I gotta meet my besties!

♥♥♥
Paddington house of pancakes!
Can you actually notice? The alphabets surrounding the ice cream is actually "HAPPY BIRTHDAY"

my 4th bday pancake

♥♥♥
And also...... I-CITY with Alex and Herman!!!
a perfect place to camwhore like no body elses' business WAHAHAHAHAHA!!!

a normal picture at first


and it started.

and it goes on!

now its unstopable!!

and now its a lifestyle!

Run for your life!

The guys.

the 3 of us =)

♥♥♥
And the best thing for my birthday,
I received a birthday call from home.
I love you papa. =)

♥♥♥
And I reached home.
And there's another birthday cake in the fridge for me,
From Serene, Phoebe, the cousins and their housemates and there's another birthday present there for me on the table.
Sorry it was too late at night i couldn't take any picture.
Thank you sisters. =)

♥♥♥
And my journey continues here.
Fantastic birthday with fantastic companies.
I have all the best people in my life.
Thank you for being in my life, people.
I seriously appreciated every single one of you.
Thank you for coming into my life and brightened my path.
My life is so filled with blessings of all of you.

~A beautiful quote given by a Singapore band which visited AMC;
So easy to enjoy, so hard to forget.

Regards,
Carmen Tung.

2010-08-06T02:09:00.000+08:00

I am loving my course more and more now. =)
Circuit analysis is so so so fun with cute lecturer and pretty tutor.
I don't mind having 2 quizzes per week for circuits I am just loving it.
♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

2010-07-29T20:09:00.003+08:00

Vain. me.
=)
After Toying with the curler in some good mood night.
Ignore my pyjamas and my oily face.
And my pimple as well.
Take note of only my curls and my good mood.

2010-07-23T01:22:00.001+08:00

Hey peeps. I know it has been a long time since i last updated.

Bear with me please I am trying to settle things over here.

Life has been a little bit messy and unkept over here.

I promise after everything is settled then I'll update as often as i could.

SHO SHORRY.

2010-07-10T02:07:00.004+08:00

WRONG
I knew something went wrong.
Something is missing within me.
And that something, is just some insignificant thing which I can't figure it out yet.
But I am very sure that the small insignificant thing is something very important yet I don't know what's so importantly insignificant that went missing and can't be identified its existence.
I totally understand that it sounds weird and hard to understand.
Pardon my lousy English but in this context, no matter what language or what expression, they just wont exactly show or tell what does that really mean.
It makes my mood fluctuate like a sea, sometimes calming sometimes roaring.
It makes me an angel, and sometimes unleashing the devil in me.
It causes hunger, and it quench thirst.
It is joy, and it is sorrow.
Its something to be thankful of, and something that you won't have enough of it.
I have no idea what is it.

All that I know is, at the end of the day
I will grow stronger. stronGER. and STRONGER.

2010-06-25T14:21:00.002+08:00

Look carefully.
Do u see any similarity between the 2 of them?
No?

Susan Boyle - I Dreamed A Dream
I dreamed a dream in time gone by
When hope was high and life worth living
I dreamed that love would never die
I dreamed that God would be forgiving

Then I was young and unafraid
And dreams were made and used and wasted
There was no ransom to be paid
No song unsung, no wine untasted

But the tigers come at night
With their voices soft as thunder
As they turn your hope apart
As they turn your dreams to shame

And still I dream heÂ’d come to me
That we would live the years together
But there are dreams that cannot be
And there are storms we cannot weather

I had a dream my life would be
So different from the hell IÂ’m living
So different now from what it seemed
Now life has killed the dream I dreamed

Travie Mccoy - Billionaire
I wanna be a billionaire so fricking bad
Buy all of the things I never had
Uh, I wanna be on the cover of Forbes magazine
Smiling next to Oprah and the Queen

Oh every time I close my eyes
I see my name in shining lights
A different city every night oh
I swear the world better prepare
For when I’m a billionaire

Yeah I would have a show like Oprah
I would be the host of, everyday Christmas
Give Travie a wish list
I’d probably pull an Angelina and Brad Pitt
And adopt a bunch of babies that ain’t never had sh-t
Give away a few Mercedes like here lady have this
And last but not least grant somebody their last wish
Its been a couple months since I’ve single so
You can call me Travie Claus minus the Ho Ho
Get it, hehe, I’d probably visit where Katrina hit
And damn sure do a lot more than FEMA did
Yeah can’t forget about me stupid
Everywhere I go Imma have my own theme music

I’ll be playing basketball with the President
Dunking on his delegates
Then I’ll compliment him on his political etiquette
Toss a couple milli in the air just for the heck of it
But keep the fives, twentys completely separate
And yeah I’ll be in a whole new tax bracket
We in recession but let me take a crack at it
I’ll probably take whatevers left and just split it up
So everybody that I love can have a couple bucks
And not a single tummy around me would know what hungry was
Eating good sleeping soundly
I know we all have a similar dream
Go in your pocket pull out your wallet
And put it in the air and sing

I wanna be a billionaire so fricking bad...!

Both of them own a dream!
a Hope
But they used different method to present their dream
different genre different style different age category with one similarity - MUSIC

Anyway, that's not my main point.
the story of Susan Boyle inspired me a lot.
a 47 year old village lady going for audition in the country's well known tv show. Everyone laughed at her when she claims that she wants to be like Elaine Paige. And she proved all of them wrong! She made those who laughed at her feel shameful for themselves. And her dream came true. Singing in front of the Queen and the High Priest is always her dream and now, it is coming true.

Its good to have a dream.
Everyone should have a dream.
And whether to make it come true or to only dream your dream, it depends on you.

Set your dream. And go for it. And endure. And persevere. Till the day u can actually celebrate

2010-06-22T02:24:00.002+08:00

He was the Penolong Kanan of SMK Tun Perak.

He is the Penolong Kanan of SMK Sayong.

He is my all time favourite driver.

He is the saviour of all accidents.

He is MY DAD.

He is OUR DAD.

♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

I don't have much of his picture,and I am not staying with him.
I am the weird one who refuse to stay with the parents and prefer the grandparents.
And He gave me the freedom to choose. He always provide me with all the freedom in the world to do whatever I wanted to do. "He cares me not" is the impression that he gives me all this while in my life, until a certain time where I realised that he cares me the most. It was when I failed my STPM.

When the whole world seems to be deceiving me, when I feel that my world is falling apart,and when i nearly suffocated to death for sleeping in the car after my results and when everyone in the world is searching high and low for the missing me even after midnight,suddenly i received a sms from him saying "Don't worry about your result,you did your best. What passed has passed. I'd saved enough money to pay for your education in the privates. Let me settle the rest." For once i broke into tears and the guilt of not being a good daughter rushed in my blood. And when I am ready to face all the consequences that I've caused,he is too the one who stood up and say "Nice experience in Form 6, now u got to really study for your Foundation" without a word of scolding.

The guilt built up in me day by day for letting him down, even until now. But he had never gave me up. I don't know how but every time of my despair his miraculous word will be able to bring me back up and to continue my journey.A simple sms from him, and you will see me shedding tears. His words of wisdom and words of encouragement won every other advises in the world.

We never met for father's day this year. All that I did was sending him a sms "Happy father's day. I love you"
And his reply made me cry too
"TQ, my loving and lovely girl, no matter what you are doing I'll get your back. I'll be supporting you all the way. take care."

Of all the powerful words, his is the most powerful on earth. =)
Papa, I love you.

This video is a Thai insurance advertisement which made me cry every time I clicked the "play" button. It reminds me of how much my dad loved me especially the part where the boy fell down from his bicycle.

"Get up. Be a man. You can do it"

It is the same way how my dad teaches me about life. He is not the protective type which doesn't allow you to try whatever he thinks that it might harm you.He is the type of "Go on. Do all the things that you think is appropriate. And if you succeed, congratulations, but if you failed, don't worry I'll catch you when you fall."

Of course I doesn't want my family to be like the one in the advertisement (touch wood), but the clip reminds me about the love of a father to his children.
and it is calling me to appreciate every of my family members because everyone of them is a gift from God to my life.

Happy father's day Papa. Sorry that I didn't tell u all these things face to face.You know Malaysian traditions, where all things are kept in the heart.
Somehow in the future if u bumped into this post, it is just a very very small portion of what i want to tell you. There are more. Much more to tell u.
I am still waiting for that day where we can really sit down and talk heart to heart and not in sms anymore. =)

2010-06-18T00:41:00.002+08:00

WHAT MADE MY DAY:

I was playing with the dancing mat, as usual =P
an addiction is an addiction.
And suddenly the sister is laughing like a mad cow in the living room.
and thus i ran out.
and I saw a scene on national television.
the girl says "我的珍珠盒不见了!!!"
with the subtitle "kotak khinzir aku dah hilang!!"

EPIC FAIL!
dumb dumb.
I ♥ Malaysia.

2010-06-17T02:21:00.000+08:00

My recent addictions:

1. Dancing mat. although i really suck in it, and the best grade i can get for now is only D,but LOL, i believe i can conquer it someday. keep going on. =)

2. A flash online game called music catcher. Some says it is boring. But who cares, when u are bored and the game is boring as well, it neutralizes the whole thing. And the song in music catch is really nice it is so soothing. I don't think its boring! muah~ I love it. =)

and I bought a book. which I haven't started anything yet. because the 2 things above is taking almost all my time ady. =)

Sem break is nice......
Home is nice......
Ipoh is nice......

2010-06-16T00:53:00.000+08:00

This.
Is the most expensive facial product ever I've owned.

This.
Is super moisturizing the best non-oily moisturizer I've ever used.

This.
Can be used with make up or without make up.

This.
Instantly moisturizes your skin.

This.
Is the 100 plus isotonic drink for your skin after any hectic did.

This.
Is my bottle of miracle.

This.
Costs RM160.

I am not trying to promote anything or trying to make this a beauty blog.
If u are interested in it you can google it or go to the Clinique counter to ask about this product.
They can help you, not me.
I am only trying to express my frustrations towards children!!!!
I got this as a gift and I have used half bottle of it.
and since it is sem break now I nicely took all of my daily uses back to Ipoh.
and I nicely placed this on the cabinet.
then I nicely went out for lunch with a friend.

And the demon came to the attack while I am not at home.
The baby girl a.k.a demon (not too baby actually, she is 3 years old now)
and please don't sing BABY by JUSTIN BIEBER.
I hated that song from the very very very beginning.
Okay back to the story.
The baby girl a.k.a demon came to my cabinet and start playing with my stuffs!
And she, with a very good taste picked the most expensive bottle on the desk and start playing with it.
SHIT.
then accidentally she overturned the whole bottle and it fell on the ground upside down. with the cap open.
everyone knows what happened next.
It is all over the floor.
RM 160 is all over the floor.
I rather she apply it ALL on her face than to topple it on the floor.
FOR GOODNESS SAKE it is $$$$$.

my floor better shine or glitter or sparkle more than it should be.
whole rm160 is on it now.
or else I am going to lick till it shines!

Everyone out there.
USE CONDOM PLEASE.!
I beg u.
=(

2010-06-14T00:13:00.000+08:00

creepy.
Its raining heavily outside it is so cooling the weather is super nice but I am feeling frustrated.
=S
Its the awesome holiday it is so good to be home but why am I frustrated?

actually I have pretty lots of things to share
but since its a little emo here
lets save it for other days.

Okay lets talk about what to do how to spend my sem break.
1. Get a good book. Some motivational beneficial book.
2. Get another book. Some fiction book. And get myself addicted to it.
3. Swim! life had been so packed I have zero time to swim in Uni for the past month.
4. PARTAY. Camerons and gatherings and catching up with friends.
5. Movie. Prince of persia and karate kid is a must.
6. FOOD! The main thing in the life! Home cooked.Ipoh food.Paradise!

Till then, when I am not frustrated anymore.
=(

2010-06-03T16:31:00.003+08:00

Okay This is Going To Be LONG!

Once a bad day started, it wont end that easily
today is just not my day. =(
woke up at 8am to prepare for my presentation
took a super cold water bath and get myself groomed for the presentation.
okay....
and I am all set to leave the apartment.
went down to the car, started it
warmed up the engine, and here I am to the class for my presentation!

"Yes I am at the guard house now. I should now turn right to go to class."
"eh why am I turning left instead? Its the 3188th time I am going to COIT d"
COIT stands for College of Information Technology. My english classes are there.
"nevermind, there's another road to COIT. Its better still, will less hump."
"EH WTH? I missed that junction again! argh damnit! concentrate Carmen concentrate"
"You gotta turn right later, concentrate.!"
"Yes I turned right. but- WHAT? wrong turning. should be the junction further ahead!"
"Shit this is the MALES' single room apartments.!"
"U-turn"
"Okay you are doing well........."

"Yes its this junction! I am very sure. Turn in, yes, correct."
"Shit what if I ruined my presentation up? no no no this won't happen."

"WHA-? I AM IN THE MALES'APARTMENT AGAIN????"
"GAH! I've been in UNITEN for one whole year and I can't reach my class without any obstacle?"

=)

"Presentation complete!"
"Time to proceed to the next class in administration building then in College of Engineering!"
"YES there's a parking space."
"Why today i just don't feel like myself? I need to reverse my car 4 times to be able to park properly!"
"GAH!"

lecture going on

"Eh I didn't bring my eraser?"
"I shall borrow from Yuvaraj who is sitting behind"
"Yuva pinjam rubber jap"

PLANG!!!
The whole class is looking at me now.

"oops, I just dropped his whole pencil case on the floor. Pens and pencils everywhere. ERrrrrrr.. o-o-okay.."
"Thank God he is not pissed."
"pick up pick up pick up"
"sorry........."

Later before lunch. one miserable thing happened to me. AGAIN
but I shall not shout it loud here. Its not pleasant. =P

FUH! that's just the starting of my day.
how shall it end, I shall tell you guys later.

=S

2010-05-29T00:56:00.000+08:00

I had a hair cut on wednesday.
the hair dresser of the saloon in The Mines
a.k.a the bos which he claims that he is 41 this year
persuaded the 7 of us for the hair cut
7 of us went and 7 of us did cut our hair
It is at first only 2 of them cutting the hair
but ended up ALL.
which is rm15 per person
and hair wash included.
=D
privilege for students.

Though I look fresh and 3 years younger now

but

MY BABY LONG HAIR is gone forevermore!

T.T

somehow,still persuading myself to not regret.

This was BEFORE with my sweet long hair. Ignore my pyjamas.

This is AFTER.

The uncle blew all my curls away.

For crying out loud I miss them seriously.

and I am going to redo my hair this sem break.

Went to the so called Prom Night after the hair cut.

here are some picturesz of me and the hair...

after a little bit of styling by myself.

All of us went for hair cut that day. ALL!

MRMA a.k.a Mohamed Rezza.

The Balloon Me. WEEEEEEE

2010-05-27T23:21:00.001+08:00

FUH

finally I get a pause

in everything

no more due dates.

ERR...

at least I get a pause from all the work

for the weekend

at least

one day.

Wesak day

Finals are near.

counting down 10 days

must

start

something

and

must

put

away

something

else

2010-05-26T11:46:00.003+08:00

OKAY!

ANYTHING THAT MAKES YOU HAPPY!

2010-05-24T00:21:00.001+08:00

Today is the Bad Day.
In bad days,what you need is just a shoulder and a pair of ears.
and I got them.
Lots of them.
Thanks people.
though we are far apart
still your love reaches here.
Imma touched.
You know who you are.

I am supposed to be finishing my slides for tomorrow's presentation.
but I am here sitting in front of this lappie
thinking of this bad day.
for some reason.
some HUGE reason.
=(

I WANNA CRY

p/s:
A best friend shares the good times and help you out by listening during the bad times.

2010-05-20T11:22:00.008+08:00

Home. Sweet. Home
Now I realised how much I posted about me going home.
=P

What's the best thing on earth?
Its the mummy bugging you up from your sleep for your breakfast.
Its the brother kicking you down from the one and only bed left at home
Which is HIS bed now. which previously used to be mine!
Its the OMG-U-R-BACK expression from grandpa and grandma
and their big welcoming smile.
Its the peaceful city, Free from work and studies

Imma gonna meet with these peepo today.

The last time we met was during CNY

the 3 months ago.

For goodness sake its so so so freaking hard to meet all peepo up.

DUH

and some of them perhaps =)

It is going to be a FEAST tonight

I am going to stuff myself with the juiciest gossips from long lost friends.

I gotta empty my brain from all F stuffs to store juicy gossips!!

err.. I mean. F=ma=mg=T stuff.

My physics equations.

WAHAHAHAHAHAH.!

till then...

so long.!

2010-05-15T04:29:00.004+08:00

Just came back from a movie =)
friday nights are the starts of partay weekends!!!!
Weekends here are good, compared to how was it when I first came in.
=)
Watched Robin Hood in Jusco Cheras Selatan and err. It was not too bad.
Nothing can be classified as GOOD for now, after watching
♥Ip Man 2♥
but Robin Hood was long.
Real LOOOOONG!
2 hours and 15 minutes.
FUH my butt aches.
Worth a watch perhaps, if you aren't expecting much from it.
I came out at 2am. All da best.

o.O

Oh and about the blog that I mentioned last post, =)
Its an awesome blog..

so awesome I view it everyday.

Its food for my dull day.
It lightens my day with all REAL FAIL pictures and videos.

sometimes I ROFL, sometimes it LMAO!!
they are just very real great failures!!~

Here are some of them.

Control yourself and don't burst out laughing like mad people!!

Indeed, my horse is a sheep!! FAIL

LMAO~~ magazine title failed entirely

S**** ucks coffee. YOU FAILED

How can I not laugh? teach me!!! FAIL

Yes, if pregnancy is a disease, I am most probably a tumor by now.

This is most probably my favourite. Its supposed to be NO SKATEBOARDING, and some retards just simply drew the nose and the mouth there and taada it turned into NO UNI-BROWS now. ROFLMAO!!!!!

2010-05-13T01:14:00.006+08:00

Found this in Sem's blog.
and according to him
he got it from his friend's blog as well.
LOL but its so true.
I do it all the time
=)

-I get a text, get distracted and forget to reply for hours

-I say "I'm on my way", whereas, I'm still at home

-I always re-read my messages on my phone while im lying in bed

p/s: I found an interesting website
pp/s: its all about FAIL.
ppp/s: LMAO
pppp/s: Imma gonna post a little bit bout it next time.

2010-05-08T22:20:00.003+08:00

I am in the land of awesomeness now.

The land of Ipoh.

Its good to come home in times like this, Mother's day...

=P, excuses..

Actually I am having serious homesick.

everything in uni makes me feel homesick. =(

sitting in McD and the father and daughter makes me miss my dad.
sitting in McD at 4am and there's an uncle, most likely in the age of 70's coming alone for McD breakfast, makes me miss my grandpa.
phoned home in McD and the way grandma comforts me and talks to me, makes me feel like coming back to Ipoh straight away to give her a big huge hug!
Its Mother's day and I miss mummy.

Everything happens in McD.

and McD now is officially the Zombie Land for me.

I turn zombie in McD

I fight for exams in McD.

and I fall sick in McD!

Imma sick now. after 2 nights in a stretch in McD from 11pm to 6am

without sleeping

4 burgers in 2 days.

infinite cups of tea everyday.

to keep me sane and to keep me warm from the super freezing air cond of McD.

because the sucky library of Uniten closes at 10pm.

so freaking early can die. =X

Luckily I am in Ipoh.

Imagine the sick you all alone in uni and its mother's day. T.T

Oh yea I went back to Sam Tet today.

With the super old Alex Chan Weng Yuen who graduated from sam tet around 2004.

Sam Tet is so different now.

With all facilities and newly renovated staff room and library.

Its the first time I went up to the staff room and library after the renovation.

Owh I seriously miss the one and a half year in Sam Tet.

the place where things really happens.

and I miss this bunch of peepo.

All the sweet potatoes of U6F3, retards.

Those are the best days on earth, U6F3.

and Big Tree Leg, too.

p/s: I LOVE YOU MUMMY!!! HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY.

pp/s: I miss using this big screen, the desktop to online.

ppp/s: Pork Feast in Ipoh!
pppp/s: Sam Tet choir is still, so fantastic. =)

2010-05-06T00:05:00.002+08:00

Imma sitting in McD Bangi now fighting for my coming test on Friday... and there's this sweet father and daughter sitting opposite me now...The father is so nice he accompany the daughter to McD this late at night....
=(
I miss my daddy!!!! It has been one month since I last saw him....
Papa!!!!
I WANT TO GO HOME!!!!!

2010-05-04T13:26:00.004+08:00

The Legend of Ip Man continues...
Ip Man 1 was already thrilling enough, Ip Man 2 is just too good I failed to describe.
Watch it for yourself u will never regret, never! I assure you.
The message brought out from the movie is so clear it is not only for Chinese, it is for every race in the world, that dignity is equal for every one and every race! There is no such thing as there will be more dignity needed for one race over another!
I cried. There are scenes where it is so heart breaking and so touching where I actually cried. T.T

Sammo Hung tooked part in Ip Man 2. =)
His character made me hate him at the beginning and made me love him like mad and cried for him at the end of the show. T.T
I M PROUD TO BE A CHINESE! THE YELLOW SKINNED PEOPLE!

And the YENG-NESS continues. =)
Look at the serious look on his face.
He is so man to the extend I am now dying for him ♥
Can I have him as husband??? Can I can I? =P

And I so so so wished that I was her.

She is pregnant this time.
With the 2nd kid for Ip Man.

p/s: Donnie Yan is just so MAN I adore him!! ♥
pp/s: Have any of you saw the trailer for the 3rd Ip Man releasing??
ppp/s: There is another Ip Man releasing soon, I saw the trailer!... It is called "The Legend is Born"...
pppp/s: I AM DEFINITELY GOING FOR IT, although Donnie Yan is not the main character this time =(

2010-04-23T19:01:00.001+08:00

There's this thing about my roommate. Either I am her all-time nemesis, OR, she is having full-time PMS.

We stayed in the same room for almost one whole year, and, day by day we are more to strangers than friends.

o.O

1st semester:

Well there's a reason why we are not close. Wait, not to say close, why are we not friendly to each other. Lets make it that way. We speak different dialects. She speaks Hokkien all the time, which is a kind of ET dialect for me. I NO NEXT TO NOTHING ABOUT HOKKIEN. And I speaks cantonese. The common dialect - for me. But that's the ET dialect for her. O.o Understandable right?? And about Mandarin, she is from Kelantan and her Mandarin slangs are SUPER NOT UNDERSTANDABLE!!! I first thought she was a Thai girl on the first day I met her, because I don't understand a single word of hers. LMAO

2nd semester:

I thought we can be friends. We went for movie twice for the whole 14 weeks, several times of dinner, and that's all. =S and slowly I can get what she is trying to say, I adapted myself to her Mandarin. Okay... I think that's all for sem 2 I guess.

3rd semester:

HER FULL TIME PMS STARTED!! I don't know why, we stopped talking with each other. Even if we talked, NOT MORE THAN 10 SENTENCE PER DAY AND WE STAYS IN THE SAME ROOM!! Plus, Suddenly she deleted me from her facebook account. I get to know this when it was her birthday and when I was about to wish her Happy Birthday in Facebook. Not just me, she deleted me and my gang of friends!! CRAP, WHAT WE DID TO HER TO THIS EXTEND THAT SHE DOES THIS TO US?? Nah, Imma not a nasty person, those who know me should know =P Story continues.... so everytime when I was not at home she will stay awake locking herself in the room. (Damn it is super stuffy with all the windows closed curtains down and door locked!!! I wonder how she stands it!!) And once i reached home, she will go to bed, no matter what time it is. LOL like I care...*eyes rolling* but the problem is, I CAN'T PLAY MY GUITAR WHEN SHE IS SLEEPING!!!! Means, GAH it is so frustrating I have nothing to do and I cannot play my guitar. T.T oh and by the way, guitar is one of my favourite passtime now. Uniten is too effing boring for any entertainment except for Guitar-ing. Heheee. Oh.... And one more strange thing about her. When she goes to bed she only switches off HER OWN side of room light. There was once where I slept quite early and I left the lights on for her, coz she is still on the study desk online-ing. But when I woke up, only HER SIDE of lights are off. Which means she only switches off HER OWN light everynight. CRAP! and my switch is just next to hers! It is juz 1cm apart!! Owh Imma dizzy Me gonna bang my head on the wall very soon. VERY. =S

But its okay. =) coz I am not going to stay with her starting from next semester.... Phew..................

She is the sweatest case ever that I have encountered.. Oh my Mother. Fuh~~~

Its 6.55pm now we hvn talked a word yet for this whole day and she is sitting next to me and I am here blogging about her.

OMFG I hope that she didn't know what am I typing here. Mwahahah.

2010-04-13T13:00:00.008+08:00

Guess what?? I WENT HOME LAST WEEKEND!!! muahahahahahahahaaaaa *laughter of satisfaction* It is superb to go home I tell u people out there. !!

I brought back some remedy for homesickness.

TAADA!!

XD I know this looks silly but ITS MY HOUSE.

Never thought of taking a picture of the HOUSE for this whole life. Until now. I took 2 pictures of it. And it feels nice looking at the HOUSE! =)

and some home cooked.!

It doesn't looked that nice though cause its eaten half way. By me. The Carmen. =P

But I can assure you. They are the best dishes on earth!

Oh and and and.. I went back to AMC!!~~~~ The very nice place with all sweet memories in it.

And the most important stuff..

And all the Ipoh people. =)

Time Flies.

Its the 4th year we left AMC.

Its 2010.

Its our 21st.

2010-04-13T11:31:00.001+08:00

I M WAITING FOR THE NEXT CLASS NOW IN THE LAB AND I AM SUPER SLEEPY TO THE MAX CAN DIE IMMEDIATELY!

2010-04-05T23:03:00.002+08:00

And for everyone’s information, I AM GOING BACK TO IPOH THIS WEEKEND!!!

Weeeeeeeeeee~~~

It has been one month since I last went back to Ipoh a.k.a HEAVEN and I can’t wait to go back now!! IMMEDIATELY!

Home is the place of healing for every problem. It is the Paradise. It is the charger.! I am so going to recharge myself I m going to heal myself from all the things that I am going through now!! Get healed get healed get healed Carmen Tung and I m going to start sprinting towards the future!! Get everything else off my mind and to step on the acceleration pedal and I am going for 200km/h!!!!! GO GO GO!

P/S: Mind off and eyes off to everything else in this world but only to the one and only finishing line that you are heading to!!! DON’T LOSE SIGHT DON’T LOSE SIGHT DON’T LOSE SIGHT!! *Begging myself.*

2010-03-29T21:55:00.005+08:00

GAH I really feel this suffocating! Out of no where homesickness just strangle me to death. Somehow I admit that I am grandma's little granddaughter. The little girl who longed for grandma all the time and cried out loud when grandma is not in sight. I JUST DON'T WANT TO GROW UP! The big girl's world isn't that fun after all. Can i just take a train and go Home right now? I miss my bed I miss my blanket badly. =(

I miss sneaking into your blanket I miss sharing the same pillow with you. I miss sleeping next to you. I miss your body temperature I miss your nagging I miss the dishes prepared by you I miss the way you cover me with blanket I miss your voice. I miss the way you hold my hands I miss the way u lean on me. And I miss chatting with you all night long. Grandma

I miss your bedtime stories I miss the taste of Milo prepared by you I miss your singing I miss the rhythm of your harmonica I miss the plucking sound of your guitar. I miss your serious look I miss the way u wake me up for school I miss sitting on your passenger seat and having school blues everyday I miss the food u prepared for me every recess time. And I miss you teaching me guitar. Grandpa

I miss the fragrance of the room I miss the twinkling lights in the porch I miss the rusting bike that I used to ride I miss the mosaic on the floor I miss the carpet that we bought I miss the cracking sound of the door I miss the way you arrange the slippers. I miss the sofa that I used to nap on I miss the old guitar hanging on the wall. I miss the old organ I miss the rough floor I miss the sound of the air conditioner. I miss the way how furniture is arranged. Home

It doesn't matter who you are. What matters is who are your loved ones that completes your life. HOME is my heaven on earth. I want to go back to my own heaven.

homesick

2010-03-25T04:49:00.003+08:00

THIS-IS-SIMPLY-BAD-ENOUGH-FOR-NOW

..>.<..

2010-03-19T18:03:00.001+08:00

YOU, my daughter =)

YOU, my baby

and YOU! my hunny

and every YOU out there...

I MISS EVERYONE OF YOU!!

2010-03-15T22:50:00.003+08:00

Its sad for not being able to attend the great grandma's funeral service. =(
It is even worse when I am only being informed of her death after the funeral service. =(
I didn't manage to see her for the final time on earth as a living person. =(
And i didn't manage pay respect to her for the last time on earth as well. =(

I FEEL SO BAD. SO SAD.

2010-03-15T01:03:00.002+08:00

Amazing Grace

Amazing grace
How sweet the sound
That saved a wretch like me
I once was lost, but now I'm found
Was blind, but now I see

'Twas grace that taught my heart to fear
And grace my fears relieved
How precious did that grace appear
The hour I first believed

My chains are gone
I've been set free
My God, my Savior has ransomed me
And like a flood His mercy rains
Unending love, Amazing grace

The Lord has promised good to me
His word my hope secures
He will my shield and portion be
As long as life endures

The earth shall soon dissolve like snow
The sun forbear to shine
But God, Who called me here below
Will be forever mine
Will be forever mine
You are forever mine

I enjoyed my DAY =)

As for other things, all are S.T.I.L.L - T.H.E - S.A.M.E

2010-03-07T22:36:00.004+08:00

DISAPPOINTMENTS!!!!

When things happen for once, it happens for the second time.
It may be coincidence for the first time, but when there is a 2nd time I called it "an intentional did with strategies to hit a goal" , which directly causes the first time to be not as pure or as coincidentally as it was.
Human being has limitations. And it has gone over to my limit for this second time that unconsciously I pulled back ALL my trust in you. We WERE once good friends. And I once thought that you will be one of my best someday.

TADAA… you are disqualified.. poot poOT POOT!!!
No more secrets for you, no more deep talk with you! BOO!!
You shall be placed in a category of “beware, you are danger” and “keeping you outside the fence” group.

It is sad when it happens for the first time, but not as sad when it is the 2nd time.
BAH~!! Because you gave me the heart preparation for the 2nd time and it DID happen.
So, take it easy wey Carmen Tung. =) CHILL

Great right? For how human being trying to defend themselves from shame. When u have SHAME you BLAME. And it is growing stronger and stronger while God is trying to pull all shames down from human being. I know I know I m like that as well, but I can’t help myself. Sorry =(

Tomorrow is MONDAY!! Oh Monday blues~

2010-03-01T23:09:00.002+08:00

Its Monday night and its emo night. It’s the first day of the semester after all.. so it is kinda okay to emo a bit… GAH!!

Stucked with the same problem again which bothered me over and over again for ONE WHOLE YEAR! One thing that I couldn’t forgive myself… An unforgiven did of mine which caused disappointment to everyone who cares for me. OUCH! It hurts a lot to let so many people down.

And there is no solution for it. Time wouldn't turn back.

And so, GAH!! ignore me I m just emo-ing…

o.O

O.o

o.O

nevermind, I’ll just continue next time.

2010-02-28T00:08:00.006+08:00

peeps i m going back to UNITEN *the hell* tomorrow...

bye Ipoh bye Perak bye home sweet home bye chinese new year!!

results for sem 2 is out and it isn't that eye soothing.. OUCH!!

and so for sem 3 no more playing around.. (but i know myself) o.O

chinese new year is superb peopo and i LOVE gatherings~! for photos please go to FB =)

and went to the beach in hard rock hotel last few days and GOSH the beach is so nice

everyone should go have a walk there seriously

and hard rock itself is just so nice you will forget to close your mouth..

and and and..

i got a new baby girl to play with... muah i LOVE babies~~ <3

but for now, bye Ipoh, T.T see u in few weeks' time..

2010-01-29T01:24:00.000+08:00

Once and for all....
u hurt my feelings for once and it will be there forever in my heart...
u betrayed me for once and it will be remembered forever in my heart...
although i didn't show in my actions, but it is always be in my heart..
to those who treat me well, i m a very kind and good person..
to those who treat me bad, so sorry i will not forgive you...
i can endure in watever actions physically u did, but so sorry if your mouth betrayed me..
this is the ONE AND ONLY thing that i cannot endure, that is when you BETRAY!
i WILL NOT treat u as person to talk to anymore.. NOT ANYMORE!!! AT ALL.

i m too disappointed in YOU.

YOU-KNOW-WHO-YOU-ARE!!

2010-01-16T19:07:00.002+08:00

Seriously the mosque is pissing me off.... 5 times per day 30 minutes per time is crap!!

totally crap!! what the Fish are they singing there... ain't sweet melody its sound polluting!!!

won't they scare that it will be burnt someday?? like how those churches are being burnt???

democratic country? GOODNESS.....!

2010-01-11T13:02:00.003+08:00

I need a holiday...or else it will turn worse...

it is very tired very hectic to live like this... o.O

I need time to sooth myself down, after one and another test..

physically and mentally tired... stressed up...

when i want to sleep for 14 hours, i will wake up automatically on the 5th hour... and can't fall asleep again...

insomnia?? or pre exam syndrom??

I miss my family, i miss my friends...

I miss my hometown i miss Ipoh..

Carmen Tung wants to go out and play... like how she used to be....

2010-01-05T01:22:00.002+08:00

Again I am touched... by the love of Him...

Worship You Alone - Planet Shakers

Your faithfulness never fails
Your faithfulness everyday
You're the same

Unfailing love sets me free
Unfailing love you lead me
With your hand

And all i know
With your arms around me
Your face is all that i seek
Your love and grace
Pick me up and hold me
You alone are holy

For you alone are great in power
You alone are my strong tower
And i will lift my heart and soul
To worship you alone

For you alone are my desire
You have set my heart on fire
And i will lift my heart and soul
To worship you alone
Worship you alone

And i will follow after you
For you are my desire
Oh jesus, my heart belongs to you.

my life is Yours. =)

2010-01-03T16:59:00.001+08:00

2010 - A new decade - A new year - 21 years old.

Foundation in Electrical and Electronics 2nd semester.

And it will be a positive year.
And it will be a very wonderful year ahead.
And it will be full of joy and full of excitement.
And it will be fruitful and meaningful.

And I will grow stronger in Him.
And I will grow mentally and spiritually.
And I will endure with a goal.
And I will persevere with faith.

And I have a new resolution to be fulfilled.
And I have a new spirit to move on.
And I have a motivation to carry on.
And I have a dream to chase. =)

And I love new starts.

My start of 2010:
1st thing doing: playing uno cards
1st word spoken: happy new year
1st destination: sunway pyramid
1st breakfast: roti with curry chicken
1st lunch: sakae sushi
1st tea time: baskin robbins
1st dinner: no dinner taken..XD
1st friend met: Joanne Lim Phui Yee
1st thing bought: a shirt
1st movie watched: AVATAR!!!
1st test: chemistry test 2… o.O
1st Sunday service: usher~~

Wishing everyone HAPPY NEW YEAR and a blessed year ahead… =)

2009-12-29T17:03:00.002+08:00

One question strucked me... "Am i suppressing my own personality to survive?"

Oh no, and this question is bugging me for few days..

and i am thinking and thinking and thinking about it..

Am I am I am I??

and i think the answer is quite a YES...

And what is the solution for this??

I have 2 options for this:

1. Continue to suppress since I have suppressed for half year

2. Be my ownself and live alone....

which one to choose???

2009-12-10T00:59:00.002+08:00

8/12/09 1.00am

“Thank you Angeline, that I felt the love of a friend, a true and caring friend after I come to UNITEN. Thank you for calling me this late, even though you are sick, to care for me. I promise you, that I will be strong and I will try to control my tear and I won’t let it fall so easily. I will try not to let this test fails my trust and faith to God. I will be strong and through this test, I will grow even more and all I believe my loved ones will be blessed by the Lord as I am growing in Him. Thank you for walking with me in the road of growth in Christianity. I Thank God for you, for your presence in my life is a blessing from God. I appreciate you.”

But for these words, I will not express it out verbally, I will keep it in my heart, and I will say it to the Lord our God, and ask Him to bless you even more and more day by day as we believe in Him. That He is the mighty and living God who reigns the universe. Praise the Lord. Amen!

*to anyone who accidentally saw this post, pls pretend that u din see it... i will appreciate.. =)

2009-11-03T12:56:00.002+08:00

Of all frustrations and all doubts, now i feel that my sky is bright.... baby blue in colour.. =)

i have dropped my calculus lecturer and add another better one!!! yay~~!!!~~

and i don't have to wake up 7am everyday to go to class.... yay!!!

now i can wake up at 8~!!

mwahahahahahah~~~

one little joy can fade my other frustrations... =)

yeapee~~

2009-10-21T21:34:00.000+08:00

01.上了大学才知道，两个天天在一起的人不一定是朋友，有可能什么都不是。

02.上了大学才知道，从来不要和别人争论什么，因为那是没有结果的，无论谁对谁错。

03.上了大学才知道，手机是有事的时候用的，并不是为了交流感情。

04.上了大学才知道，真心对一个人好不一定有回报，而你忽略的人往往有可能是最重视你的。

05.上了大学才知道，很多东西是可遇而不可求的，很多东西你只能拥有一次。

06.上了大学才知道，恋爱不一定是真心的，有可能是利益关系，有可能是攀比心理。

07.上了大学才知道，原来中学老师教的是那么好，那么负责任。

08.上了大学才知道，很多时候自己遇到不开心事，千万不要渴望别人同情，大多数人会采取冷漠回敬的。那样会更让人家看不起。

09.上了大学才知道，有很多东西是不属于你的，你使劲强求会遭天遣的。

10.上了大学才知道，生活是有很多不公平的，你一定要正视，相信实力和群众的眼睛。

11.上了大学才知道，人的性格可以差异到如此之大。

12.上了大学才知道，一个人要自己对自己好，因为真正关心你的人很少，有了事他们也不一定会在你身边。所以要自己照顾自己。

13.上了大学才知道，课程会在你不经意间，拉下很多，期末考试前不一定能补回来。

14.上了大学才知道，钱用的是那么快，用钱的地方是那么多。

15.上了大学才知道，从现在开始应该把握每一个你能把握的人，放弃你留不住的人，不要因为想留住个别人而失去一群人。

16.上了大学才知道，自己一定在乎自己的自尊，因为你的自尊在别人眼里根本不算什么。

17.上了大学才知道，不要心情不好的时候对周围人发脾气，渴望他们谅解你，人家不是你的父母，现在你可以明白父母对自己多么重要。

18.上了大学才知道。即便有人对情感看的无所谓，你一定要坚信，人之间的感情，有可能会令所有东西无法超越的，但记住，只是有可能。

19.上了大学才知道，会遇到许多自己看不惯的人或事，但那与你无关，别人爱咋整随他便，别生不该生的气，不值。

20.上了大学才知道，许多曾经的人会变的让你认不出，但请留住回忆。

21.上了大学才知道，会遇到很多诱惑，无论别人怎么样，你是你，你有你的原则和底限。

22.上了大学才知道，会有人很讨厌你或者和你过不去，但是他爱怎么样就怎么样，我们要大度，不和小人计较，但前提是你正确。

23.上了大学才知道，很多人无法理解男女之间的朋友关系，在一起就一定是恋人，不是恋人就一定不能在一起。

24.上了大学才知道，学习要刻苦，因为凭聪明就能应付大学科目的人是风毛翎角。

25.上了大学才知道，原来时间一空闲下来是那么无聊，丝毫没有中学的充实的感觉。

26.上了大学才知道，太在乎别人了往往会伤害自己。

27.上了大学才知道，对自己好的人会随着时间的流逝越来越少。

28.上了大学才知道，可以不把所有人当朋友，但千万不能把一个人当敌人，至少可以当同学。

29.上了大学才知道，玩你能玩的起的，玩不起的千万别玩，不然会输的什么都没有的。

30.上了大学才知道，快乐常常来自回忆，而痛苦常常来自于回忆与现实的差距。

31.上了大学才知道，原来上课，吃饭，上自习常常得自己一个人。

32.上了大学才知道，有很多人的想法与做法你无法理解，或是根本不知道他在想什么，千万别在那揣摩或者瞎猜，那样会让自己累，既然人家要保持神秘感那就让人家保持去啊，自己又不是占星师。

33.上了大学才知道，每个人都是带有“地方特色”的。

34.上了大学才知道，别人请客吃饭或着自己请别人吃饭都是很平常的，甚至请一个不怎么熟的人都是有可能的

35.上了大学才知道，每个人都是认为自己的家乡最好，无论他的家乡贫穷或富裕。

its so true..... its so so so so true.....

2009-10-15T22:08:00.003+08:00

i can't believe that i am in ipoh right now.... OMG wat am i doing here??? =S

all of a sudden i am shifting house, and then suddenly i was so hungry and i made this weird decision to come back to ipoh, and now i am here in mcd on9???

omg wat happened? i am stunned!!!!

it all happened in few hours time....

after 4 hours plus in ipoh, i still couldn't believe that i am in ipoh....

what am i doing here???? I DON'T KNOW!!!

2009-10-13T01:35:00.003+08:00

KEEP HOLDING ON!!

Hold on and stay strong!!!!

ARGH!!!!!!!!! SAVE MY SOUL!!!!

Because from the very beginning no man loves exams.....!! and i HATES it the most!!!!!!!

2009-10-02T00:58:00.002+08:00

Should i continue this?? of should i end it up right now?

Should i continue to endure?? of should i put a full stop in it??

And i got my answer already.... =)

and my answer is 1 Peter 3:8-17

praise the Lord~

2009-09-23T00:54:00.002+08:00

i'm back in ipoh.....

with the crave to eat loads and loads of good food.... =)

but but but....

after 2 and a half months in serdang with the not-so-good air and the not-so-good water,

i got to readapt with everything here in Ipoh all over again.

feel weird with the hot water bath...

feel weird when i don't need to wash my own cloths,

feel weird when i can sleep on a double bed,

feel weird with the air-cond in the room,

feel weird with the clean house,

feel weird with the slow slow slow slow connection using telephone line,

feel weird with the still-alive gold fish in the jug,

feel weird when there is a television functioning in the house,

and i feel weird with the food here as well.....

and therefore after a night of steamboat with friends + celebrating yeong ann's bday.....

i'M SICK... =(

it caused me food poisoning..

stomach malfunctioning causing fever and almost all the signs of H1N1....

but... i'll skip the boring part describing my sickness... LOL

no signs of progress in my physics here in Ipoh.....

sigh..... all my time is spent in gathering and reunion and sleeping(because of this food poisoning)

and i haven't even touched my physics note yet.....

and the test is on MONDAY!!!!

faint~~

time is running out... and i m not started yet.....

omg

i need wisdom and determination plus some understandings to finish my physics before my test

gv me gv me all these.....

2009-09-17T01:00:00.002+08:00

okay since i am here... lets update a bit....

wake me up when september ends
becoz
FINAL IS HERE AFTER SEPTEMBER!!

the most upcoming event : Raya holiday!!!~~~ yeapee!!!

lame =="
that's me...

2009-09-06T16:46:00.002+08:00

i doubt a lot...

with all the "what if's"

"what if....??"

"will i be...??"

"who will i.....?""

"when will i...??"

i saw a lot of my former form 6 schoolmates' picture in facebook........

will i be like u all if i work harder??

before this i asked myself : "did i regret for my grades?"

and my answer is :"no i did not, because i did my best!"

but now i asked myself: "did i regret for my grades?"

and my answer is :"yes i regreted badly.. if i could do better last time, then everything will be different."

although my life here in uniten is very good, =) i get to know a lot of nice people here....

but most of the times i doubted... what will be my life if i am in any of the local uni...?

take care and all the best for those who are in local U...

work hard, all the best and god bless.....

i'll miss u all...

2009-08-31T18:59:00.003+08:00

its the first merdeka day of mine which is soooo free...
since 2004 my merdeka day is all about parade and band and patriotic songs ...=)
maybe that's why i feel so strange when i wake up this morning...

flashed back a lot about my past few merdeka days..
i am with the same bunch of people for the past 5 to 6 years on merdeka day...
and and and
everynite before merdeka the bunch of friends will be in hew mun's house chatting and playing.
merdeka parade is a very good reason to stay a nite at a friend's house...
how cunning of me LOL....

Oh~ how i miss those days.....~~
T.T
throwing pillows on each other.....
sleeping together in a small packed room..
chat the night out until the big sister scold us to go to bed i.e hew whye.... XD
eating chips and tau fu fah together and doing stupid things in midnight....
hahaa....

and this is the result of standing under the sun for the whole day
=S

2009-08-17T01:35:00.002+08:00

i am back here in uniten....
hoping to be excited for the new week of mine...
but that doesn't seem like it is going to happen...
i don feel like going to class
T.T

OMG this is only the 6th week and i have such feel already.....
no no no i must not allow myself to fall into the cliff...
i must climb and climb and climb to the top
i must climb to the peak of mount everest and raise up my own flag there..

gv me motivation
gv me strength
gv me determination
gv me discipline
gv me anticipation
to soar and shine~~~!!~~!~!!~~

i wanna shine

2009-08-13T23:42:00.002+08:00

there is less than 36 hours left for me to be in ipoh
i shouldn't have come back for the week =(
now i feel awkward...

i wish to go back to this age

14 years old.
so that i can have 6 more years to linger around ipoh
LOL

2009-08-10T15:12:00.003+08:00

i m back in ipoh... =)

stay neutral stay neutral...

dun get too happy dun be too excited...

because what goes around comes around....

the higher u fly the more painful it is when u fall.

stay neutral stay neutral......

guess what?

the first thing i did is to go to old town kopitiam with my grandma...

omg i miss old town kopitiam so so so much...

and i miss my grandma too of course....

stay neutal stay neutral...

don't be too excited...

calm.....

i love you~

2009-08-06T22:59:00.002+08:00

uniten closed down for 11 days...
=(
6th august until 16th august..
because of the seriousness of H1N1 in the uni
3 person had been certified H1N1 positive and 6 more is still pending...
i must say farewell for my sem break d..
coz my 2 weeks sem break had been cut short to 1 week d....
how sad..........
sigh...
going back to ipoh in these 2 days....
and.... i m not happy about it =(

2009-08-03T09:29:00.002+08:00

one blur month had passed..
its now august.. the 5th week of the semester.
hope that everything is settling down...
hope that i am mentally physically and emotionally adapting this new environment =)

and i am not going back to ipoh until hari raya
or i only will go back during my sem break
T.T
because they say i waste money waste time going back to ipoh...
therefore......
there's no diference for studying in sabah or selangor.
ITS JUST THE SAME WHEN I CAN'T GO HOME!

met up with joanne yesterday..
gosh i miss her so much...
the situation when i am going to the ktm to go back to uniten is like in those korean drama when the boy is going off country for some family matter and wont be coming back for a few years and both the boy and the girl is so sad they look at each other until the car turned the corner and there is no sight of the boy/girl anymore...
this is what happening here
=(

went to 周华健 and his band 'superband's concert on saturday night..
omg it is so so superb....
i love them!!!!
hah!
there's too much to write and there r not much time left.
so.......

till me meet then....

i love you guys out there...
especially joanne....
i miss you!

2009-07-30T11:59:00.001+08:00

work is piling up...
=(
lotsa revisions to do
lotsa tutorials to do
lotsa assignments to do

so little time

2009-07-29T11:31:00.003+08:00

went to church 2 weeks ago and i got a very nice quote ^^
"if god can bless the one next to you, god can bless you as well...
why jealous?????"
=)

2009-07-20T00:52:00.002+08:00

did something wrong today...
=(
mood isn't that good when my laptop is being used by housemate without my permission!
and grandma phone me at the mean time...
so i chat chat chat with my grandma and that conversation wasn't that smooth when we talk about money...
and then i slammed the phone call...
and i din pick up the call when my grandma phone me again....

i was angry...

but 1 second after that call ended..
i began to feel the guilt...
i feel guilty...
why am i treating my grandma like that?
its not her fault..
its my mom, her daughter's fault...

bad carmen!!!
i miss my grandma now...
i only get to see my grandma in 1 month time...
i am only going back on august 14th
and i miss grandma very very very very very very very much....
sorry for just now
=(